Please send word, Goddess Lilith, on the New Moon 3 Offering with the dovetailing of new beginning with priestess, new era with hypnodomme, and initiation with Venus. 1. What/how do I celebrate 2. What/how should I be careful?
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Seeing the picture of my work shrine in her honor, Imaginatrix declared "today is the day" to wear the meditation beads that represent my bonding and belonging to her. Tomorrow is a Beltane observance and the following cards answer the prompts
1. What does Goddess have for me? TOV Star = new trust, inspiration, and path after the Tower. 2. What theme am I exploring at Beltane? TOV Moon = love, lust, and magick in imagination 3. What am I ready to unite? TOV Sun Empress and Emperor exchange as earth and fire combine, the sunlit world and moonlit realm harmonize perhaps. Prince of Grails on bottom of deck shows energy of the quest, the passion and courtly service to the Queen. Oh Lilith, through cycles of the seasons and phases of the moon, loving the process and lingering in the pleasure of...taking...your....time..., through the dark energies, archetype of a thousand faces, and messages from beyond, please aid me in my dedication to hypnodomme Imaginatrix, even as priestess says to dedicate to you for a time, feeling your uncharacteristic possessiveness: I cry out to you. RENICH VIASA AVASH LIITH LIRASH...RENICH VIASA AVASH LIITH LIRASHRENICH VIASA AVASH LIITH LIRASH...
I reflect on the focal points that seem to be required for hypnosis and mind control: for a single trance state, a visual sigil, candle flame, or spiral works as well as sounds like voice, mantra, tone, or drum. In multiple and sustained states of control or worship, a single name, logo, image, or dogma can be anchored to practices of prayer, ritual, tithing, consumption and promotion or even CBT behaviors in breaking addiction or anger management. I as wonder about the efficacy of focusing on a single point vs. shifting points of focus, remembering Indra's net of soft polytheism--in which all gods are reflected in each single cross-point in the network, the full transcendental expanse unavailable to the human consciousness.
This ragged figure feels impoverished, devoid of passion, the landscape bathed in green fumes as the sweet light of the moon turns sour around the cathedral that once channeled fantastic light. Now chained and masked by practices that once served, the figure seeks renewal away from the idol now demonic and the chalice of fire now green. In the context of daily or weekly practice, a dopamine drop and Sabbath is needed, a clearing of the old ashes, and a refreshment of imagery. Use the clarity to research, record, and archive, to study and invest, to confirm and consent, to clear away old ashes and await fresh fire. Perhaps this is the reason embodied goddess takes breaks and invokes endlessly creative scenes and approaches.
Day 14 of the 21-day "Bewitched Bargain," feeling submissive for Imaginatrix, making a third Tarot Trance video today, and working toward the offered live hypno-session. I asked both embodied goddess and the cards for an answer about keeping my submission private from my wife (in particular but in my mind coming out of the closet generally). The answer from embodied goddess was very good for me: not interfering with relationship agreements, not passing judgement, providing a safe place to explore pleasure or fantasy, and wishing for self improvement. The 7 of Swords reminds me that illusion can be healthy hiddenness or toxic deception, that strategy in game moves or life hacks can be beneficial, that putting self first can help with boundaries and social conditioning.
As I listened to the "Personal Best" hypnosis file, a mixture of pleasure in fantasy submission and energy for real-life motivation, Goddess Trix led me through some painful soul areas, sensitive shadow lands because I have--as long as I can remember--struggled with rejection and failure, being a closet over-achiever. Yesterday, I almost gave up on making a hypnosis video (prompted by her lovely Tic Toc message on X) but a soft energy came over me at the right moment. I feel the fear and resistance at the prospects of trying again, but have taken the first steps of picking out some tarot cards for trance, will make an outline as I did the first time, and listen to this file again. I did not promise to make another video. I know that I often feel I could do anything for Goddess but also know violating myself is fruitless.
How to approach making a Tarot Trance hypnosis series on YouTube? True submission comes from a place of rest, with a safe production center that is overtaxed, overburdened, and weary with diminishing returns. Even vows to remain true "in sickness and in health, for better or for worse" can weaken and break under the stress of drying desire and burned-out energy. The magic of BDSM submission and hypnotic hedonism lies in the wish to be spellbound, and when the pleasure leaves domme or sub, the spell will soon be broken. Should true obedience be given to a request made without a personal request or negotiation? Perhaps the reason hypnodomme does not request exact sums of giving and makes demands general, to be interpreted and applied individually, is that she knows violating consent--or even directing outside of the scope of desire--will break the spell and evaporate the pleasure instead of eroding the will.
Sobbing with joy as embodied goddess personally directed me to sacrifice my body to her in 1,000 different ways--because it feels like a real mix of dark, strong command and feminine yin energy, like she understands me, driving my self programming so deep as I am already driven to double the exercise at just liminal fantasy...sobbing and determined to feel the burn, to feel the sweat pouring out...
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