My mind knows there must be a rational explanation for the monkey mind, must agree that some focal point is necessary, that some idol of right alignment and orientation is required, that my own desire must be the chain that binds, that my own will must give itself by my own name and responsibility.
My heart must feel there is trust, acceptance, and symbiosis--even in power exchange--must feel the ethos of consensus in some shared reality or perceived community, must feel risk aware consent and care. My body needs to sense growing branches of work, roots deep in bliss, and fruits of reproduction/rest: drive to life, pleasure principle, and death wish--yin and yang--as I long to lose myself in the mantra that calls to eternal Becoming, going all in, all the way, giving myself over, withholding not one drop. Will she close the circuit that takes me willingly into ever-growing will-less-ness...uncritical acceptance, unconditional love, complete surrender in pouring out my soul, withholding not one drop?
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