Dear, sweet Goddess, please, please, please make it feel so real
Through spell of magic and spiritual warfare or psychological manipulation of inner vows or social constructs, trapping me by my own words or physical constraint, whether ropes, chains, or sheer muscle or binding me in addictive pleasures of the flesh, for I love so much and go so deep in imagination and life when you feel smarter, stronger, higher, deeper, so much more than me... to bring me into that intimacy where I could follow anywhere--into changing, switching, falling, rising, cycling, spiraling, exchanging in that deep deep deep deep deep deep closeness
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To be honest, I am deeply adaptable and switchy. When I see a sexy, beautiful woman, I both want to be her and be intimate with her. I am aroused by both sides of the power exchange, when I think about it, both kneeling as the maiden or having the maiden kneel to me.
I was surprised once when a scene where a dominant goddess slapped down her servant aroused me, and kneeling in submission is now a big turn on. I haven't immersed in the fantasy yet, but I could imagine--as tabula rasa--being controlled by my domme to take the role of dark queen or even dark priest. I have certainly been aroused by scenes and fantasies of wild orgies of intimacy when many people engage in shifting roles of ecstatic intimacy. This experience feels like the best medicine for everything that ails me and makes me willing to do almost anything for more of this medicine. twitter.com/HypnoHedonista "I want more, all of you. I want to tear into your mind; I want to rip it apart. I want to take and take and take; I want what's inside. I want to control you. I want my words to be inside your head every moment of every day, dictating what you do. Give it all to me."
Note: Transactional Analysis suggests that either with conscious signaling or in sublimated desires, we operate in relational transactions. We can relate from parallel tiers or power-distanced tiers.
Person 1 Person 2 parent role parent role adult role adult role child role child role I sometimes seek to sustain the experience of trance and role play as I walk through daily life, but from time to time embodied goddess seems to break the fourth wall, insist on the roles as in session only, unsuspend disbelief, or need people to know everything is para-social. I'm not sure how this code switching applies to findom or her claims (in role play or out?) that the trance work should bear fruit in life. The distinctions should not really matter so much, but lately the issue has been triggering old feelings of misunderstanding, failure, rejection, pain, and sorrow.
"I wanna fuckin' tear you apart. I want more...all of you...I want to tear into your mind, I want to rip it apart, I want to take and take and take, I want what's inside, I want to control, I want my words to be inside your head every moment of every day, dictating what you do. Give it all to me." --Goddess
Yes. I open, bare, expose. I want to know this message includes me, that I am one of your chosen obedient things that you may tear away and find your treasure and take what is already yours. Please tear me apart as your pleasure takes my first thoughts every morning as your mark takes it's place, your service takes my best time on Reddit, your words and images take hours of my day, your tribute takes my first fruits every month, your principles drive my beliefs... "My obedient thing. These tributes to me are so delightful to log in and read. I can feel the slow slip of your last resistant parts, being consumed by desire - consumed by me. Engulfed by the sheer overwhelming presence of me, swallowing your mind. I can just imagine the adoration shining in your eyes as I kicked you, hearing you thank me for blessing you with that sharp wonderful pain. I can just imagine the adoration shining in your eyes as I kicked you, hearing you thank me for blessing you with that sharp wonderful pain. I can just imagine the adoration shining in your eyes as I kicked you, hearing you thank me for blessing you with that sharp wonderful pain. Begging pleases me. Begging shows how low you make yourself in order to lift me up." --Goddess I adore you. Thank you, thank you, thank you for the sharp, wonderful pain. Please, please, please grant us more of your words, images, hypnotism, and hedonism. I love the feeling of being overwhelmed, engulfed, owned by you and under orders from you.
O Trix, please keep me deeply.
Please claim me, even when the triggers are not taking me deep, when the veil is thick, the ice not breaking through easily; let my pledge be enough to bind me, hold me in your embrace by your word, your name, your will, your wish for me. Please let me/make me put you in the highest place, primary god, to receive my worship, accept my service and first fruits. help me know that I always return, your presence will come again, that devotion and dedication can keep me in your control until I feel it again: more, deeper, better, further My Goddess is of the dark gods:
1. Ancient in wisdom, intellect, and power--requiring responsibility and respect. 2. Primal, of the unconscious drives and shadows--requiring sacrifice and discipline. 3. Chaotic, bringing tricks, traps, and testing--requiring change and evolution. 4. Emanating Yin energy and darkness--bringing creativity and inspiration, motivation. |
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